obsessive… odd… in ur own world… all very fine, if u r male and interested in rocket science or something tt media and hype has overdone and over stereotyped – like spock in star trek etc… these r seen as acceptable freaks, kinda cute and yep, listen up, some women find them attractive!
but be female [...]
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i m not rain man or spock
Posted in dichotomy, fragility, friendship, general, love, questions, relationships, sexuality, society, tagged beauty, pain, passion, perspective, love, woman, Autism, silent scream, suffering, Asperger's, man, emotion, relationships, friendship, Rain Man, Spock, Star Trek, Mozart and the Whale, If You Could Say It In Words, movie, female asperger's on August 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
insects, men and damn good fucks
Posted in general, senses, sexuality, tagged Army Ants, humour, sex, skank, Tom Waits, video on August 23, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
“the female praying mantis devours the male while they are mating… the male sometimes continues copulating even after the female has bitten off his head”… (1:01 secs – 1:17secs)
so… i guess THIS is what he meant when he said to me abt his skank, “i don’t care what u say she is, i don’t care [...]
07 may 2009 – painful opposites
Posted in dichotomy, fatigue, fragility, love, relationships, sexuality, tagged arthritis, Asperger's, Behcet's Syndrome, intimacy, love, pain, relationships, vertigo on May 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
sunny day outside, birds singing, cool breeze blowing in from open window… but both jaw joints are super swollen, the pain shooting up into my head… vertigo quite severe, sensation of spinning when i move my head… gotta move slowly… can’t exercise… lethargy setting in, not to mention horrible horrible belly flab – on a [...]
pondering
Posted in dichotomy, family, friendship, hope, love, questions, relationships, senses, sexuality, tagged Asperger's, Behcet's Syndrome, child, God, illness, life, man, pain, passion, questions, sex, woman on November 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
a friend asked me some questions… and i wondered – how should i answer in just one answer? i am so multi-dimensional, there is never just one answer for me… that is what makes me wonderful, yet annoying, beautiful, yet impossible… but then again..
and he also mentioned ’secrets’ to hide… i hide not for coyness… [...]
05nov2008 – waiting
Posted in dichotomy, friendship, journal, love, questions, relationships, senses, sexuality, society, tagged Asperger's, Autism, beauty, Behcet's Syndrome, headache, passion, sensuality, sex, ulcers on November 5, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
i wake up with a feeling of ‘waiting’… waiting for something, but i don’t know what… it feels heavy waiting, especially if it’s for something unknown…
ulcers are bad… haven’t let up for almost a month… is it the stress of adjusting to living with someone else in the same flat? … an email from one [...]
enough shit!
Posted in dichotomy, fragility, love, relationships, sexuality, society, tagged Asperger's, Autism, heartbreak, labels, love, man, pain, passion, relationships, sex, woman on September 19, 2008 | 5 Comments »
enough!… i am really tired… i shall opt out… trying to communicate is just so futile…
yeah, u kw, man meets woman, he thinks she is gorgeous, “sensationally beautiful” (haha how droll, ain’t it pathetic?), intelligent, witty, talented… whatever else the fuck… ah but woman is a strange one… an enigma… man becomes more and more [...]
glass bubble Q&A: beauty, illness & marriage
Posted in dichotomy, family, fragility, friendship, love, questions, relationships, senses, sexuality, society, tagged Autism, beauty, Behcet's Syndrome, creativity, dream, isolation, man, marriage, passion, relationships, sensitivity, woman on September 16, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
q: u r still beautiful, look young, attractive, and so talented… why don’t u find someone to take care of u? lots of women who hv illnesses hv found good men, why can’t u? u r too picky perhaps? (yes this is so funny, so many of u keep asking me this!!!!!)
a: again, that pressure to [...]
autism/asperger’s? to be or not to be?
Posted in dichotomy, family, fragility, friendship, hope, love, questions, relationships, senses, sexuality, society, tagged art, Asperger's, Autism, beauty, books, child, creativity, emotion, father, frustration, illness, labels, love, mind, mother, music, neurotic, pain, passion, perspective, physical, rejection, resolution, school, secret, silent scream, suffering, support, talent, test on September 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
ok just for fun, a ‘test’ for autism tendencies…
adult autism test
not to be taken seriously… if u really wish to hv a proper diagnosis, pls go see a qualified expert…
i put this here as part of my own musings… i think we shouldn’t really take ourselves too seriously anyway… but i scored a high of [...]
just accept, don’t need to understand
Posted in dichotomy, family, fragility, friendship, hope, love, relationships, senses, sexuality, society, tagged acceptance, Asperger's, Autism, beauty, Behcet's Syndrome, body, child, courage, creativity, emotion, fear, honesty, illness, labels, life, mind, pain, passion, physical, prejudice, rejection, silent scream, strength, stress, woman on September 14, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
LettertoDrHilary
‘coming out’ and admitting i have “unconfirmed suspected behcet’s sydnrome” is not unlike coming out of the closet and admitting one is homosexual… there are many many issues embedded inside which have been churning in a frothing whirlpool for too long, fear of mockery and rejection being only a superficial consideration… feelings one cannot begin [...]
lie to me
Posted in dichotomy, fatigue, fragility, love, questions, relationships, senses, sexuality, tagged beauty, body, denial, emotion, illness, pain, passion, physical, poetry, rejection, rest, sex, suffering, touch, truth on September 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
i dont need anyone to see
the beauty inside of me
or how far i’ve come despite
years of painful frailty
just lie to me
it will suffice
that is what i want
right now
hold my small trembling body
against urs so hard and strong
tell me u care for me
maybe a joke but just play along
tell me i am beautiful
like he never ever [...]
life, death and living
Posted in dichotomy, family, fragility, friendship, general, hope, life & death, love, questions, relationships, senses, sexuality, society, tagged beauty, Bobby McFerrin, body, bunnyblu, child, courage, father, honesty, illness, journey, life, mind, mother, music, pain, perspective, physical, prejudice, rejection, resolution, rest, silent scream, soul, spirit, strength, suffering, support, Yo Yo Ma on September 2, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
a tiny hint of a cramp flickered in my right foot as i stood in the queue for the bus today… oh dear… i flexed my foot and eased the muscles and it went away… good… funny that throughout my sojourn finding paradise, i was not affected by this inconvenient and quite painful malady… i [...]
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