some spunk emerging … the right knee is less painful and the swelling has receded a little, but still very stiff… my right ankle and knee are showing signs of fatigue… but still managed to clean my little bathroom and do laundry today… yay!!!
it was so nice of my gf to bring me the walking stick yesterday… tho it was a little tiring having to make small talk, i know that was just the less socially pleasant side of my asperger’s and out of gratitude i managed to mask that little quirk for long enough… and my girlfriend was quite sensitive to my needs, she did not overstay… it was nice to see again and of course i m so so so grateful for her kindness and care… she is one of the very few friends who hv never offered facetious advice nor sprouted ‘wisdom’ regarding my condition… she just accepted me ‘as is’, and whatever i tell her abt myself without even a raised eyebrow… so despite our differences (she is a highly social NT) we share a common ground – that of mutual respect and acceptance…
i m finally on the way to putting away a too long overdue shadow over me… and even tho there may be never be the kind of peaceful resolution between us that i so longed and persisted for, i must now look inside me to find my own resolution with myself for who i m… and embrace my path once more…
hopes and dreams that i held before hv been destroyed… what is destroyed cannot be repaired… but i will keep hoping for new dreams… new love within me… and new expressions of my dreams and love…
it seems like a good day today…
