17 dec 2008 – me today

a letter to my friends who’ve love and supported me…
a bit of apprehension… i am gonna see the psychologist today – at last… allowing a stranger to scrutinise me quirk for quirk… i am lucky, i had always had great friends to care for me – lawyer, doctor, psychologist were all personal friends who adored [...]

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15 dec 2008 – meandering musing

jaw has been less tight lately – i am able to align my front upper and lower teeth… but chewing still hurts – not the teeth but the jaw joint… possibly hv arthritis somewhere there… only a few ulcers mainly in throat, and apart fr the ringing blocked ears, its a great day today…
weather cooling [...]

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silly ditty

silly little ninnies making up lies
cover up shut up
pretend we’re dragonflies
silly little ninnies jumping up and down
over reacting to each other
running merry-go-rounds
silly little ninny she tries so hard to explain
too many tumbling words fade away senseless
melting paper in the rain
silly little ninny he says he’s oh oh so afraid
all negative predilections coming true
like halloween pre-paid
silly [...]

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positive combustion

sometimes aspergers
can be a horrible thing
yet there can be so much beauty
when a nightingale sings
i am sorry i over reacted
guess what i feel really stupid
but i dont want to always blame myself
for being me, i can’t help it
yes i hv considered the issue u raised
and i assure u i am always checking checking
careful not to [...]

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detached intensity

to my precious friend…
i love u… i want to kw u love me too… sometimes i want to be with u… but not for too long a period of time… i need to be on my own… a lot a lot of space… i am intense, i love deep… but i also want detached distance… 
forgive [...]

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08 dec 2008 – revelations & resolutions

a lovely cool day – weatherman said it wld be cloudy but sun’s up anyway… awakened by the light and greeted by a beautiful juxtaposition of dark and white clouds… bounced up to take a photo… good start to the day… ulcers recurring on both sides of the tongue, ears blocked and eyes blurry, but [...]

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06 dec 2008 – dragging my feet

a long tiring day… too much walking… but dragging my feet with my work… horrible painful throat… dry weather and exhaustion… slept late last night, came home hungry and tired after prancing around in a fabulous retro-electro-pop concert… had hot soup and veggies… lay in bed crying for awhile, musing over dichotomy… got up early [...]

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