its a sunshiny day… in more ways than just the weather… i slept rather better than last nite… probably the pilates session yesterday did me a lot of good… began my first pilates session in several years… forgotten where those muscles are… but my instructor says my body will remember… sth called muscle memory?… i hope it remembers fast 
met up with a good friend yesterday for lunch – always good to talk to this friend, an inspiration to me always… we talked abt our usual passion, music, and planned for a performance next year…
ulcers pretty bad today but i feel happy… quite inspired to work today… and i’ve lotsa work to bite into… one thing i am constantly grateful for is that i love my work, i find solace, restfulness, inspiration and regeneration in my work… i love deeply, i am extremely and acutely emotional (unlike most autistics/aspergics)… but i am very aware of my quirks and it grieves me when my eccentricities hurt those whom i love, e.g. my irritability when in pain, or state of frustration when i feel crowded out, my need for far more space than normal pple, my heightened sensorial sensitivity etc… but when i can hv time and space to myself to really get cracking, i find my entire physical state is lifted… and i am a happier better person to be around when around… i guess my friends and loved ones do try to understand…
and i m grateful for their patience… as i hope they appreciate my efforts to relate…
